To my beloved:
Remember the prophet Elijah who was deeply discouraged with feelings of inadequacy and defeat...prayed that he might die. "I have had enough, LORD," he said. "Take my life; I am no better than my ancestors." Then he lay down under the tree and fell asleep (1 Kings 19:4). God understood Elijah's weary & despair and let him sleep until he's rejuvenated.
"As you know, we consider blessed those who have persevered. You have heard of Job's perseverance and have seen what the Lord finally brought about. The Lord is full of compassion and mercy." James 5:11
"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." 2 Corinthians 4:16-18
For Questioning or Worrying the unknown is a waste of time*. As long as you're doing what is good, "to slander no one, to be peaceable and considerate, and to show true humility toward all men" Titus 3:2, there's no need to think too much.
May you find rest and peace in God. May he grant you wisdom and encouragement to overcome this. May his strength and comfort shower upon you. May his warmth cheer you and make you giggle. May you sleep well and not let the bed bugs bite.
Love u always,
~cC
* "Look at the ravens of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?" Matthew 6:26-27
~cC
